I’m back. Mostly because I think I need to document my equestrian life somehow. And blogging is the easiest way. Its quick and doesn’t require too much work (given that my posts are left unpolished).
In my last post, I wrote how my life felt surprisingly normal for a month despite not having ridden, and this was coming from a girl who used to feel like a week without riding was life threatening. And surprisingly, this feeling of complacency without riding lasted for five months. The general gist of why I stopped riding was a mix of multiple reasons, one that was riding related (I felt I was not going anywhere, if anywhere I was going backwards), but I think it was mostly that my life began shifting in a different direction, one away from horses.
And for 5 months, I felt that was the right direction to go. I became increasingly interested in in expanding a different side of me, one that had been in the back burner while horses were a prominent feature of my life. I remember 6 years ago, horses were all I thought about. And as the years passed, it became less and less so. Often times now, there are people who are surprised to hear that I ride horses, even after having known them for a while. This used to never be the case because horses used to be all I talked about.
This 5 month break, I realized was not really for the sake of allowing myself to reset to become a better rider, as I had initially felt it was for. (I wrote a post about riding and how taking a break can be beneficial). This long break was more of a matter that I needed to realize how overlooked this portion of my life has been for the past year or so. It had become a weekend hobby (which is true in some parts) in which I rode on the weekends and promptly returned to a “normal” life once the weekdays started. I was no longer really an equestrian or living the lifestyle. I started to take the involvement of horses in my life for granted. It’s sad that something I used to dedicate my life to has been put off to the side for so long.
While my break has not reset any of my riding skills at all (in fact I still retain all of my bad habits), it has really reset my perspective on horses and their role in my life. Now that my perspective has shifted, I can realize to the full extent to which horses and riding were apart of my life. I realize how much I took each ride for granted. It wasn’t until a couple weeks ago did I finally feel that direness to ride a horse again the same way I felt before I even sat on a horse for the first time. If anything can teach you to fall in love again, it really is absence. Then you can truly understand how you’ve taken something for granted.